You know how sometimes you get so desperate and impatient for something to happen that you push and push and push hoping it will speed things along?
Maybe it's just me, i don't know.
But the end result of my pushing usually always turns out badly.
You'd think I would have learned from my mistakes by now, but sadly I have not.
In a perfect world this would be sorted out by now and things would be awesome.
Yeah...it's not a perfect world.
So instead here I sit in the backlash of my mistakes wondering how I can turn it back around in my favor.
I wanted so badly for things to work out that I forced myself on someone I haven't talked to in 4 years and I'm pretty sure all I did was freak him out. Go me.
Now I get to sit here and wait. Wait to see if me coming back was the right thing or if all he is doing is sitting there laughing at me saying, "Haha yeah right, like I would ever be friends with you again. Pyscho."
I've put myself out there and that was hard. Now there's no response and I have no idea if I'm being tested or if this really isn't going to work out.
Is the ball still in my court? Or does he having it dangling over my head like a guillotine ready to chop my head off?
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